sitting on a hard bench
buster brown shoes on my feet
unwilling to smile for the photographer
or anyone else i meet
wearing a silly shirt and bowtie
inside a hot studio room
i'm asked to behave nicely
but i feel an approaching doom
not a mushroom cloud exactly
just a sense i don't belong
i haven't yet accepted
the notion that i could be wrong
the world was still a small place
not even a marker on my hand
there were philosophical discussions
which i couldn't understand:
a basement party without a band?
an Easter chicken that couldn't fly?
looking in the bathroom mirror
and seeing a forehead bull's-eye
with the ever-present blonde hair
atop a child's smile with a wry grin
but already a questioning stare:
what is out there?
no, i don't want your damn tomato soup
or to belong to any mindless group
don't talk to me about slavery
or about the bomb to end all life
i'm out back in the blacksmith shop
tempering my own knife
it's just that i'm in a time zone
where i'm happiest being alone
where music sounds like the expanding universe
i'm old now
writing and reading verse
wearing sandals with no shirt or bowtie
and if i appear to cry
it's only when i glimpse a nightmare becoming true
and don't know what to do
to save you
as we sink inside an inkwell
without premonitions
about heaven or hell.
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