Cotopaxi, Ecuador (summer 2012)

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

I almost forgot

I almost forgot

On The Road 

was written a long time ago

but Jack K is still here in memory,

hunting for Old Bull Lee

who is somewhere shooting bullets and drugs,

lots of drugs.

Jack K drove to Boulder on the hunt,

but the Institute wouldn't admit him,

so on their Buddhist front steps, he started to read an important poem,

Howl,

and the pages still held power,

although the original author was a former mental patient from New York City.

a listener standing on the top step said she didn't understand the words or the work!

and to "Please return tomorrow or never."

Jack said, in his courteous Catholic way, that he used to hang out at Columbia University,

when the poem's writer was once a student,

but the comment dropped on her like an unwelcome flash of insight.

Picking up the insight idea was Cassady,

who threw it into his car,

along with Jack, driving off with great haste,

listening to jazz played at the highest volume,

and began yelling that he'd fuck everybody if he had the time,

though he seldom stopped speeding,

and took every turn he found,

looking for adventure.

Jack said he'd write about it

as soon as he found a working typewriter and a long

scroll of paper.

maybe he didn't need Old Bull Lee after all.

But Cassady didn't hear none of it.

Tuesday, August 17, 2021

you are a God

and tonight
you are a God
or a Roman Catholic priest
with a small dog on your lap

instead of an innocent child waiting for a father-figure.
you dream of riding a white horse in
the woodlands of upstate New York,
having fled the midtown scene
because you were down on your cultural luck.
you are NOT a naked Allen Ginsberg
descending an ornate stairway with Peter
to greet an irate Gordon Liddy,
who would soon leave empty-handed,
laughing all the way to the bank.
in the morning, you are noticed:
wearing a new psychedelic beret
with slender, sparkling strings of golden beads
dangling from your neck,
smiling like a Cherokee with wise eyes and an insomniac heart,
resembling the most dangerous man in America
surfing chaos
marveling at grains of sand on a fantastic beach,
running for governor of California,
singing autographs for the unclothed members of a lost Berkeley tribe
and praying with your alter ego friend, Jim,
who said his real name is Timothy Leary.
he would soon donate his brain to medical science,
which he did.
you moved quietly to the Taos Pueblo,
married Juanita, a native Indian woman
and tonight
you are a God.

Thursday, August 5, 2021

nothing was going my way

went downtown

hoping to fool around

with a bottle of wine and a couple of smokes

found a joint where they told party jokes

but still felt blue

wondering what to think and what to do

but nothing seemed right

spent too many hours watching the night

turn into day

what else should i say?

nothing was going my way

people stood up and looked around

wondering how to stand their ground

and soul music played

but no one got excited and no one got laid

on the ground

the Salvation Army lost and found

little bits of this and some of that

collecting memories in an old top hat

no one can say if the winds will blow away

all the negative things that people say

and it's so quiet there's no other sound 

hoping to fool around

and soul music played

no one got excited and no one got laid

on the ground

the Salvation Army lost and found

little bits of this and some of that

collecting memories in an old top hat.

Jessica in Madrid, Spring 2006

Jessica in Madrid, Spring 2006
daughter is empowering herself